A couple things. The fact that you feel “attacked” when you receive blunt criticism on something like an admin application shows immaturity on your part. If the community handed out admin lightly like servers have done in the past all sorts of weird bullshit would start happening. I won’t go into the details right now, but it’s not pretty.
There was zero anger on my part. As a matter of fact, I’m pretty impartial to the entire affair. But logically, the fact that you say you “seriously had no time at the moment” is complete crap. I don’t get on the server very often these days, but when I’m on I’ve seen you. I’ve never seen you pm me and ask if I’d give you a vouch on the next admin application you made, yet I see you type a lot in-game otherwise. Definitely tells me you had time to do so. So is it toxic for me to say you could have put more time into making your application more presentable? Or is just realism?
There was no mistake on your part, I meant exactly what you thought I meant. Your application was bad and needs work in the future. If you want, I will work with you and help teach you for the future as you are both an EBSF member and showing some amount of change from your past character.
The fact that you think because we clan together it means I will vouch for you on something completely apart from the clan is both assuming incorrectly on your part, and an insult to my integrity. You put me in a position where I must either create strife between us, or lie and say I have faith in you without cause creating a biased admin for the server (myself), and I will not personally become biased or hypocritical if at all possible.
I have said nothing on other admin applications where people just “do the same thing” because my name was not listed among the vouchers.
Let me give you some advice for the future and how I, myself, would go about creating an admin application. First: I would listen to the admins’ advice on the subject. I have seen several high leveled admins give some advice on this admin application and even former admins.
Second: I would specifically ask admins (probably level 6 or higher) if they would help teach me how to become an admin worthy character for the community.
Third: I would ask (ask, not pester…there is a difference) high leveled admins AFTER I have learned some things from the admins, if they would vouch for me. If they say yes, then that’s a yes. If they say they’ll think about, then let them come to you in their own time whenever they are willing to give you an answer. And if they say no, do not berate, talk back, or become verbally abusive towards them. Instead, ask them why. Ask them how you can become a better candidate in the future, and ask them if they are willing to reconsider in an appropriate amount of time.
Fourth: I would understand and accept that “friendships” are a horrible way to get into a public admin team, unless you’re specifically applying for a clan admin level on a clan server. Strong and well considered admin teams are created and molded as objectively as can be, and the factors that are looked for are more solid than the biased “yes’s or no’s” of friends or clanmates.
And finally fifth: I would look at the admin applications of some of the other admins on the public server. It helps you see what people critiqued them on, and also how strong their initial application was. DO NOT copy/paste their words, that is both dishonest and laziness…but read what they have to say and think about how it applies to yourself and where you see yourself fitting into that general idea.
I clarified specifically on my first post that I was not personally attacking you, but you still felt personally attacked. I am sorry you felt that way. I will therefore clarify again, this is not an attack against you. This is a realistic (yet harsh) way of looking at ANY admin applicant and the basic gist of fundamental admin applications. As I said before, I will not vouch for you on this admin application but I WILL offer to help you in the future if you want, and perhaps, I’ll be willing to vouch for you on your next admin application if this one fails.
P.S. Have fun reading that.
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